Today I thought of restrictions and more importantly, the ones that I place on myself. Why worry or fear...really? If I want to be free, it has to start with me. So, I'm free...I claimed it...just a few seconds ago. My hair, its free (really, it is). My skin, its free. My choice of clothing, my style, my walk, my talk...it is also free.

Dreams

I've dreamed plenty, seeing myself as a cloud that rises and moves without limitations. Life, from that standpoint, seems happier, my smile is as wide as hips and I'm not just living, I'm thriving.

Each time I awaken, I faced with the reality that I am not "there" yet, but I am getting close. As one relationship ends, I went through the hurt, the remorse, and the anger, only to rekindle a love with another relationship-- the one I once had with myself. It is beautiful, freeing. Each day that surpasses the next, I have grown stronger in my faith and my awareness of what matters has become clearer. Friends and family, talents & aspirations. The God that walks with me and resides in what I do.

As Maya Angelou said it: "You can only become truly accomplished at something you love. Don’t make money your goal. Instead pursue the things you love doing and then do them so well that people can’t take their eyes off of you."

LIGHT.

Restless...

Prior to last week, I was not very pleased with most things. Progress in certain areas sucked. Through prayer & dialogue with loved ones, I have come to terms with who I am...and that love....so undeniable, magnificent, and warm...is the greatest. I'll keep this black & white, however mysterious, as a reminder of what light lies beneath the dark.

Today, I found out that I could walk away from you and even though I may look back at past moments shared, I'll never be fond of you in the same way, ever. I also found hope in the little steps I've taken to express myself through art. Therapeutic.

Behold a lady

The classic lady is a rare breed indeed.

I love Nikki Giovanni's Ego Trip. It describes a lady, perfectly.

 

I was born in the Congo

I walked to the fertile crescent and built the Sphinx

I designed a pyramid so tough that a star

that glows every one hundred years falls into

the center giving divine perfect light

I AM BAD

I sat on the throne

drinking nectar with Allah

I got hot and sent an ice age to Europe

to cool my thirst.

My oldest daughter is Nefertiti

the tears from by birth pains created the Nile

I am a beautiful woman

I gazed on a forest and burned out the

Sahara Desert

With a packet of goat’s meat

and a change of clothes-

I crossed it in two hours

I am a gazelle so swift-

so swift- you can’t catch me

For a birthday present when he was three

I gave my son Hannibal an elephant-

He gave me Rome for Mother’s Day

My strength flows ever on

My son Noah built new/ark and

I stood proudly at the helm

as we sailed on a soft summer day

I turned myself into myself-

and was Jesus!

men intone my loving name

All praises- All praises

I am one who would save

I sowed diamonds in my backyard

My bowels deliver uranium

the filings from my fingernails

are semi-precious jewels

On a trip north I caught a cold and blew my nose

giving oil to the Arab world

I am so hip- even my errors are correct

I sailed east to reach west- and had to round off the

earth as I went

The hair from my head thinned and gold was laid

across three continents

I am so perfect, so divine, so ethereal, so surreal

I cannot be comprehended

except by my permission

I mean … I … can fly

like a bird in the sky..

Now, that is a lady.

I've missed you...oh so much.

By TeaandKittens

I am on a quest to rekindle my relationship with everything I've ever loved & that loved me in return...

the warm and fuzzy feeling lattes bring.
quiet moments surrounded by jazz and enlightening conversation.
smiles and laughs in conjunction, with loved ones-- only muted by the enjoyment of food.
being free in mind & spirit-- in traveling, doing "something," giving "something," and being "me."
drowning in passion....unrestricted by none, bold & respected by many, and beautiful in every way.

Faith

"...the natural man does not receive the things of the Spirit of God, for they are foolishness to him; nor can he know them, because they are spiritually discerned."

1 Corinthians 2:14-15

I'm thankful that time can heal all wounds and so, today is better than yesterday. Tears must be constant when there is something to purify and people/things must be shed in order to reveal a greater purpose...a better being.

2:26

i'll be sitting here when you get here. bare, inviting, in rare form. you'll be a passerbyer to my wanting and as suffocating as it is, i'll just wait and wait, wait for you to see me, but I know you won't. we don't talk.